The following was found after Frank (Jr.) passed

THE LAST GOODBYE

by Frank (Jr.)

In My Own Words:

First Year - A 35 year young married man finds out he has CANCER!

I am a workaholic with a beautiful wife & 2 adorable children.

DR’s operate - Remove testicle

Wrong Pathology report - Unnecessary Radiation Given, but unknown for 1 year.

Transition from an Immortal youth to A Frightened Human.

The Recurrence: After one year of denial and trying to live normally to hold on to marriage and children. Pain becomes too much, have to go to Doctor. Doctor calls it arthritis and says " learn to live with a little pain!" After 6 months, Pain becomes intolerable, go for second opinion. New Doctor sends me to the Hospital immediately. There is a tumor growing through my rib cage. After cancer is diagnosed correctly this time, they use chemotherapy and after it shrinks enough to operate, they do so and remove part of rib with the tumor.

After surgery and more chemo, friends drop like flies (except one) and family gets distant.

Wife holds on at first and children deny and avoid (for their own good) thank God.

Thought: "If Hell has a full name, Chemo is in the middle!"

With an almost sure end coming, everything falls apart, including the patient.

Because of ignorance in the work place, I lose my job! Due to loss of income, we lose our home!

Prayer: "Please Let Me Die"

But, I hang on. With a lull in the cancer war, I live a depressive non existence of a self made life of condemnation.

Thought: "Where are we?"

We move to another state to become someone else.

The new Doctors won’t listen to what has been done and think they need to start over. In their efforts to control my pain, they goof and I almost die in the process. Most of the time I wish I could.

Marriage is now like living with a distant friend and children become outlets for anger.

Prayer: "God please forgive me"

Revival of the beast- Cancer returns and advances fast. The family returns to the love they shared when it first began.

Move back to original state to be near. The roller coaster of life has come to test our spirit. I feel that life is an obstacle course for our souls.

Doctors offer a light in the darkness with surgery. Life almost returns for 4 days with an epidural block, until needle accidentally comes out and pain returns.

The final call and the definite end.

Prayer: "God Hold me close that your love might hide the pain. I give my soul to you knowing that it has always been. In Christ’s name I pray"

In Paradise with the same family, the same friends, all filled with the beauty, light, and warmth of a new fresh world. I have stepped into the mind of God. It is not death, the end, but the belief and the true BEGINNING.